This past September I lost my childhood friend in a sad unexpected way. Jason Mertz was one of a kind. His death left a hole in me my heart and emptiness in my soul. This has lead to me not being in the right frame of mind to either exercise or write on my blog.
Through the struggles I have had a hard time keeping my weight at where its been. I have not been caring what it was that I have to eat. I have been eating a lot more candy. I have also not been exercising or going for walks. It has been a struggle to get my engines back running. Luckily I have not gained much weight, only about 7 pounds.
Losing someone can make it really hard to function and return back to your everyday self, let alone be able to lose weight. However I will be able to reflect back on memories and use them as motivation as I get myself back to losing weight and my goal of getting to that 100 pounds lost goal.
I remember this last time we hung out, we went down to Lincoln City for a weekend to enjoy the beach. Jason was upset that he was no longer able to call me a fat head. He was so impressed with the amount of weight I had loss that he decided he needed to search out a new nick name, I think he was going to just stick to big head haha.
Jason suffered from Aspergers, so fathead was not a big deal to me growing up, that was just Jason being Jason. Whenever he gave me a hard time I knew deep down how much respect and love he had for me. He would tell my wife Kate multiple times just how proud he was of me, how much he respected me, and that meant so much to me. Even though he could never really tell me, knowing how he really felt made me feel really good about myself.
I always admired how he would be there for my family and I. Whenever we needed help, he would be there to try and fix the situation. I feel bad I was not around him more than I was, but we always will have those feelings when the time becomes too late.
I know he is in Heaven right now and doing his all to get me to get back to losing weight again. I have felt him near me many times and know that I need to keep going. He was always impressed at how much weight I am losing and encouraged me to keep it up. I know even beyond the veil he still is rooting for me. I need to take this new motivation and keep on my path of weight loss. I'm close to the 100 pound lost mark, and need to destroy that goal before working on a new one.
Through the struggles I have had a hard time keeping my weight at where its been. I have not been caring what it was that I have to eat. I have been eating a lot more candy. I have also not been exercising or going for walks. It has been a struggle to get my engines back running. Luckily I have not gained much weight, only about 7 pounds.
Losing someone can make it really hard to function and return back to your everyday self, let alone be able to lose weight. However I will be able to reflect back on memories and use them as motivation as I get myself back to losing weight and my goal of getting to that 100 pounds lost goal.
I remember this last time we hung out, we went down to Lincoln City for a weekend to enjoy the beach. Jason was upset that he was no longer able to call me a fat head. He was so impressed with the amount of weight I had loss that he decided he needed to search out a new nick name, I think he was going to just stick to big head haha.
Jason suffered from Aspergers, so fathead was not a big deal to me growing up, that was just Jason being Jason. Whenever he gave me a hard time I knew deep down how much respect and love he had for me. He would tell my wife Kate multiple times just how proud he was of me, how much he respected me, and that meant so much to me. Even though he could never really tell me, knowing how he really felt made me feel really good about myself.
I always admired how he would be there for my family and I. Whenever we needed help, he would be there to try and fix the situation. I feel bad I was not around him more than I was, but we always will have those feelings when the time becomes too late.
I know he is in Heaven right now and doing his all to get me to get back to losing weight again. I have felt him near me many times and know that I need to keep going. He was always impressed at how much weight I am losing and encouraged me to keep it up. I know even beyond the veil he still is rooting for me. I need to take this new motivation and keep on my path of weight loss. I'm close to the 100 pound lost mark, and need to destroy that goal before working on a new one.
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